Just Do Something

In that one long day, there's been lots of tension, good and bad. But I guess who's life doesn't have tension? The overall tension was risen with the question, What are we supposed to do next? With Colton's wrist hurting in tendonitis, and not seeming to be going anywhere, it's given all of us time to stop and think and wonder and pray about our musical life, and what do we really want to do. We've had many family talks. And many talks between one to another. We have a few paths we could pursue. But I don't have any answers for anyone, really. So more to come on that. 

Journeys kept Darren-- they like him a lot, and he's doing well there. Colton just recently was hired at Starbucks; he starts full-time on Monday, which is exciting. It doesn't mean free coffee for me or friends-- but it does give me the opportunity to go to Starbucks, which is kind of exciting. As for me, Aeropostale finished up the winter season, so I'm done there. It was fun (the two days I worked there, because of starting late with the license thing and all), but they did tell me to come back and apply in April for the next hiring time. So for now, I'm not sure what I'll do job-wise. If I can do something part-time, that would be helpful, but it's a matter of finding something. 

In the meantime, in this one long day, I've been doing the same-old-- writing songs, drawing (I have a new drawing to be put up shortly. I've become a spotify-addict. There's nothing like drawing and listening to songs from Hayao Miyazaki's movies, "Kiki's Delivery Service", "Ponyo", "Spirited Away", etc..), cooking lots (I made one awful batch of german cookies, a good batch of Full Moon Cookies, and a couple yummy cakes, and dinners), cleaning, and jogging (I love jogging-- it gives me opportunity to go over the gospel over and over, and it really encourages me day to day). The weather has been incredible, like 70-75 degrees every day. Yesterday, there were people swimming at the pool nearby. I'm liking this weather; but strangely, I kinda' want it to get miserably cold, so I'll appreciate spring more when it comes. That just shows how discontent and unsatisfiable a sinner like me can be. Never content. (I will say, though, this weather IS nice, and I'm enjoying it day to day.) 

Christmas was fun, and good. Colton gave me a watch necklace that I'd seen, and really wanted (and didn't say anything to him about it-- he knows me well!), and an earring feather. And he opened the black beanie I found for him (I thought for sure he'd take the pom-pom off the top of it, but he likes the pom-pom, which is pretty cute). We spent the day baking, and I got to talk to my family within the next few days, which was really nice. We're hoping to go visit them in March, if we can save up enough to go. 

New Year's was simple and sweet. Friends from church came over, we played Apples to Apples (my fave), and watched the ball drop, and just talked a lot. It was neat to hear the rest of the neighborhood cheering in their houses when we stepped outside at midnight. 

I can say that I also heard some incredible sermons this week. I like to go for walks and listen to them on Miss A's ipod. There was one on Depression-- by far the BEST, most helpful thing I've ever heard on depression ever. No counsiling or therapy or self-help books could measure up; those thing never give enough, or do enough. So for those of you who struggle with despondancy and depression (I think at some point, we all go through it, though some more than others for sure), this sermon really helps a lot. It's called, "The Wounded Spirit"--- http://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/timothy-keller-podcast/id352660924 

Also, one by a funny guy named Kevin DeYoung, on the will of God. Super helpful on trying to figure out what God's will is for your life. I know there's SO many things I go back and forth with in my life in trying to "decipher" what God has for me-- like He's some sneaky, unhelpful God or something. Shows my pride. This sermon really helped me to see that God's not like that, and that making decisions and choices is a LOT easier than we think it is. It's called "Just Do Something" --  http://sgm.edgeboss.net/download/sgm/next/2009/next09.m_deyoung.mp3   

Besides this, nothing much. Oh, I did catch my hair on fire this week. But it's still on my head, so that's good. Really good. 

love, zara